Thus the end of this blog.

This year has been an interesting one...up until May I reckon, it was bad.

Don't worry. This isn't going to be a sook of a blog. I've thought, prayed, discussed and working on the healing part.

It was at a party in November, that I realised it was time for a change. You know, the one where you all left me to sit at the other table with hardly anyone on it? Yeah that one. I could have moved over to where you all were, but quite frankly I'm tired of being the only one making the effort.

I thought that if I disappeared for a while there would be the whole thing where I come to the conclusion that I'm more counted for than I've realised. After 5 months of no text, email or any effort of contact from pretty much any of you I realised that this wasn't the case.

It hurt and I'm not afraid to admit that. It made life hell for those 5 months.

But I'm okay now. Through that I've learned so much about myself, others and has brought me a bit closer to God...because He's the only one that I've been able to rely on through all this. I've put those 5 years behind me and am now moving forward. I go somewhere else and have a new social network altogether. I feel like I'm actually seen, counted for, cared about and that it's a two way deal with these people. Not the 'I think the world of you people' and am lucky to get a head tilt in acknowledgment.

To actually move forward, I've felt the need to write this blog. From now, there will be no more posts. There will be a few other changes as well, not fun ones but ones that will benefit in the long run.

Take care and best wishes for wherever life might lead you,

Sarah Whitaker.